Category Archive for "People I Love"

Good Men Do Exist

I remember being pregnant with Zeb and facing the decision every young mother is forced to faced. Being 17 and looking at single-motherhood pretty much guarantees that people will go to great lengths to scare the shit out of you. The intentions might be well-meaning but the message still feels pretty miserable: Parenting sucks, it’s too hard for you to do alone, you’re too young to do this right and oh, by the way, you’re doomed to be single and miserable because no guy will ever date a woman with a kid. To one extent or another, by someone in my young life, I was told those things. And I could talk at length at about each one of them and what they did to my thoughts and intentions. But I’m going to focus on the last one right now. …you’re doomed to be single and miserable because no guy…

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Inspiration Monday – The Halfway Point

We’re about halfway through our interim in Las Vegas and finally feeling as though we’re making some progress in our transition out of Benny and into a new rig. We’re still keeping our eyes on a January departure, although possibly mid-January now. We’ve sold the old truck (yay!) and it looks as though we may have Benny sold soon too (yay!). We’re getting ready to sort through our storage boxes and sell even more items and we’re hoping to head up to Eugene, OR soon to do the veggie conversion. (If you’re in the area, let us know!) The time is really flying by and I hate to admit we were a little ambitious in our plans. We’re so swamped with the transition, it’s been difficult to find time to spend with friends and family as much as we’d like. But we’re trying! We finally had the opportunity to hang…

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Inspiration Monday – All This Free Time

The new website is ready, the giveaway sponsors are set, tomorrow is the big day. The day I “launch” the site. I’m excited, anxious, can’t sit still. All my hard work will be put out into the world and I can only hope you love it as much as I do. Oh, no, it’s not perfect. But it’s really good. (Or at least I hope.) In the midst of all the excitement I also feel a bit of letdown. I’ve dedicated a lot of hours lately to this site. Getting it Just Right has been my project, and although I’ll be continuously adding to it for some time to come, I can’t help but feel a little unsure what to do with all this free time on my hands. All my passion and inspiration has been poured into it. What do I do now? The past few days I’ve felt…

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Odessa, Texas – My Father’s Hometown

I wasn’t really sure why I added #8: Visit my father’s hometown, until we were actually pulling closer to Odessa, Texas. It had always been he and my brother who spoke about visiting. But as we were driving down the 20 it suddenly became very clear. There were quite a few gaps in our relationship, some as wide as three years of silence. Others were smaller, missing pieces that you only come to miss when someone’s gone. It is the history, the connection to his past that I crave. Based on what he spoke about I know exactly four things about his childhood: That any good dentist could tell where he was raised, because the water there was known for the stains on his teeth. That he moved away from his hometown and to Las Vegas when he was about 12 or 13. That he developed diabetes when he was…

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Making Love Last

A reminder to focus on my love. You know sometimes I’m amazed Justin and I not only made it this far, and are still so in love with each other. We had both come from divorced parents and I especially didn’t have very many healthy relationship models. Neither one of us really knew what love was or what marriage took to succeed. But we did know we didn’t want to put our child(ren) through the pain we experienced as children. A few of our single friends have asked us in the past how we did it: how we found “the right one”, how we made things work and how in the world we stayed so passionate for each other. I’ve been thinking about this a lot in the past few weeks, trying to understand our own romantic journey and discovery, or self-discovery really, trying to find our own “keys to…

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Green Bay Highlights

We spent several weeks in La Crosse, Wisconsin, spending time with Justin’s family. He’s posted those highlights here. After La Crosse, we headed back across Wisconsin to a small town an hour outside Green Bay. Zeb’s Gramma flew into town and we met her at her brother’s home for five beautiful days. Tom and Mary live on a beautiful beach lake. We happened to reach them just as the weather cooled down. It could not have been a more serene setting. We spent the first day playing with cousins, eating yummy food (they had a plethora of yummy gluten-free foods just for me!) and enjoying the water. The next day was much the same: tubing, boating, playing in the sand, hooping, eating, chatting. The third day was spent in one of Justin’s favorite places: Lambeau Stadium! We toured the stadium, inside and out. By far the most memorable part was…

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Let’s Grow Old Together

Let’s Grow Old Together from Tara Wagner on Vimeo. Ten years together, 8 years married. Still madly in love with butterflies and goosebumps. Happy anniversary, my love. Here’s to this moment and many more. Current location: Noah’s Ark, Wisconsin Dells

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What An 11 Year Old Does For The Camera

Zeb has an aversion to having his photo taken. It probably has something to do with his mom always shoving a camera in his space. But sometimes when you look at your ten year old eleven year old, your heart just swells and you have to capture the moment. Or try to anyway… Until he realizes what you’re up to… And tries to persuade you to stop… Until you have to beg… And he finally gives you that grin that melts your heart… Yes, Mom, I can send you a copy.

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Small Gifts of Love

Everyone has their “thing,” right? That one thing they just can’t do. Mine is dishes. It’s not that I just hate doing them. It’s that it is that one thing that grosses me out. Give me vomit to clean or a farm animal to slaughter and I’m good to go and probably a little too interested. Show me a sink full of soggy, slimy food particles floating in warm water and I’m going to gag. Heaven forbid one of those food particles actually clings to my hand. I’m getting chills just thinking about it. This is actually a two-fold issue: Food particles = indescribable yakking reflexes I don’t really like the sensation of wet hands…or feeling wet in general. Especially if it’s cold water. I know this makes me slightly weird (although I’m adamant I’m not alone) and I do manage to take showers. Mostly I think it’s just a…

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Nashville Highlights

Our lives are so full of playing and visiting and new ventures. I’ve hit such a groove of writing and creating that I’m finding it hard to post about it all. I want to keep a record of our adventures, but I certainly don’t want to bore anyone! I’m going to try a few highlight posts and see how they feel. We were in Nashville for several weeks. We parked Benny in my aunt’s backyard, but mostly lived in her house. We made communal meals, Zeb turned her den into his personal man-cave and we worked. Mostly we decompressed. We were so comfortable and relaxed with her and my soon-to-be uncle and I loved being able to spread out in her kitchen – oh counter space, how I miss you. It was just what we needed. We met some long-time internet acquaintances, visited their farm, hooped with their family and…

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