A Beautiful Surrender to Our For Now Home
That pic above? That’s us in our For Now home, grounded in the panhandle of FL for the foreseeable future. (If you missed that on the blog, you can find the details here.)
It’s been pretty incredible, this transition “off the road”. It’s come with a fair share of challenges, like missing my man now that he’s gone all day.
But it feels so very right, too.
We both are quite surprised by how right this feels. Walking together last night, we both just breathed it all in and felt like we were home. It felt good, even if we don’t know what it means (after all, this is only suppose to be for a year or so – who knows what is coming down the road).
I’ve learned something interesting from this though:
I really have no flipping idea what to expect anymore.
Talk about surrender. I’ve completely let go of all expectation of what we’re doing, when we’re doing it, or how it’s going to work out, except one: I fully expect Life to guide us where we get to go.
It’s funny how my Guiding Word for 2013 (surrender) was so freaking terrifying to me back in November, and now it feels so warm and comforting and safe…like it’s become a sacred friend and a true (and gentle when I go with it) guide. I can’t imagine the mess I’d be right now if Surrender hadn’t been working with me for so many months already. I can’t imagine where it will continue to take me, but I’m in complete trust of it now.
As we pulled into our new spot, Justin and I walked around doing a little smudgy blessing, speaking words of love and intention and prayer. And this little tree frog showed up, having hitched a ride on our RV from our last spot.
He sat in my hand awhile, looked up at me like he had a lot to say, and then hopped on my chest.
And there he rode down to the river that is our backyard. I tried to set him down but he stayed put, even jumping back to me when I tried to release him. So we sat for a few moments while I deliberated (and Googled) the symbolism behind these little guys.
The first thing I read:
When the frog jumps into your life it may indicate now is a time to find opportunities in transition. We see animal symbolism of transition with the frog in its unique growth cycle. The frog undergoes incredible transformations to reach the destination of full adulthood, and so do we as humans.
Could Life be any more clear?
I have no idea why we’re here or how long we’ll be here. I know it will come with challenges of its own. But I also know it’s exactly where I need to be to do exactly what I get to do in order to transition into my own spiritual adulthood. And for once I don’t feel anxious. I just feel trust.
P.S. It’s never too late for a Guiding Word.
In the Sisterhood there is a private little care package, an ebook to help you DIG IN to your upcoming year and find that Guiding Word that will take you through it. It’s not just for New Year’s though. It’s for anytime you can hear Life speaking to you about a new direction and you’re ready to listen with intention. This little care package, Digging Into 2013, is currently only available to the Organic Sisterhood. You can learn more here.