On Balance and Passion

Balance by Mari Dieumegard

Balance - artwork detail by Mari Dieumegard

This is my newest piece of art, a gift from the lovely Mari Dieumegard and I can’t wait to hang it in the new rig (I plan to have a real desk again – this will be above it).

I love this print, called Balance, especially right now. It reminds me to keep moving, to be daring, to go for it. It reminds me to keep my head up and my eyes on the goal but to enjoy the view and the company. It tells me to keep my arms and my heart open. And it feels powerful to me, but also carefree, as if it says “Look what amazing thing I can do on an average Sunday afternoon.”

Life has been a tightrope these past few weeks and through the madness I’ve had to harness that carefree, open-hearted power. I’ve had to remind myself of what I am capable of on any given day. It doesn’t always look like such an amazing daredevil feat but it sure feels like one.

I’m launching my new website on Tuesday with a BIG giveaway here on the blog and having a very real deadline with very cool sponsors can be a little daunting. Add to the mix a deep desire to not sacrifice our personal life, while also handling the emotional upheaval of so many changes and it was enough to elicit concern from loved ones.

It reminds me of this one from StoryPeople:

Tightrope by Storypeople

“Most people she never tells about the tightrope because she doesn’t want
to listen to their helpful comments from the ground.”

Yes, I was on a tightrope, one that looked unnecessary or dangerous at times. But I walked across it. It had its messy moments and moments where I nearly fell, but I took a risk. And for that I’m proud.

I’m also proud that I DO tell people about the tightrope, the challenge, the maddening moments of frustration, the days I want to quit. I’m proud that I have the courage to be vulnerable. It’s uncomfortable (for me and sometimes for others) but it makes my accomplishments all the more real for me.

I look at these two pieces of art and they remind me of what I so often forget: I am open, accepting of a challenge, ready to be daring, push my own envelope, take risks and grow. And as the madness winds down and I have time to lounge, I can look at those personal achievements and hurdles and feel good.

So how did I find this balance through the mad rush of work?

By accepting it wouldn’t look the way I thought it would.

It didn’t look like equaling doled out chunks of time. It didn’t look like me keeping up with my early morning routines or my physical therapy. It didn’t always look bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.

Instead it looked like me passionately devouring my Task List, sometimes for hours on end, several days in a row. A few late nights and hectic days and lots of personal successes and reminders from my husband to eat or take a break. Then, right around the time my eyes went crossed, I’d pull back for days or weeks or even months at a time. I worked went I felt inspired to work, played when I felt inspired to play.

With Zeb immersed in a new computer game, we often sat side-by-side on our laptops, he sharing his accomplishments while I shared mine. And when you make your own schedule you get to do cool things like take your son on a lunch date or curl up in bed with your hubby all morning or stay in your pajamas on laundry day.

When I think of balance, I don’t think of how many hours I spend in each area of my life. I think of how I feel: how much time I spend doing what I love and enjoying it. That feels balanced.

That’s the purpose of life for me: enjoying the hell out of the adventure of living. And I feel balanced.

What’s balance look like in your life?

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13 Comments. Leave new

Still figuring that out…

Tara,

I knew I sent the print to the right person! You are able to communicate in words what I was unable to… which is why I paint.

Much love,
Mari

TheOrganicSister
October 24, 2010 10:20 pm

You know, as I was writing it I was thinking “she probably thinks I’m crazy!” Glad to know I’m not. :)

renee @ FIMBY
October 24, 2010 5:21 pm

I would like my balance to look more like your balance. We’re working on getting there but right now it just seems like a lot of work and prioritizing.

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That is an excellent way to define balance! I would love to tell you what balance looks like in my life if only I had it. I tend to either all work or all play. I work from home m-f and when I don’t have to work I am looking for play. I clean when it gets critical and shop when the cupboards are bare. I guess I feel like there’s not much to balance in my life. I wish I had more demand on my time. People needing something from me and me contributing to something greater. Sounds divine.

TheOrganicSister
October 24, 2010 10:24 pm

I’ve come to see balance as more about perception than what I do. If you look solely at what I do it would look pretty imbalanced too.

Lauren Luquin
October 24, 2010 7:21 pm

I can relate to your perspective a lot Tara… I treasure each moment with my family, and how we go with the flow of our our lives, unfold and open up to the new light while holding sacred vigil into the nights too, remembering our roots, in so many ways and realms of the spirit… So healing to hear it the way it flows from you- your intentions shine true…Balance is Blessed Love… Always in all ways… Balance in our breath, movements- as we master ourselves… Accepting the challenges and growing stronger… Resting when we’re tired… Trusting our intuition… Giving thanks… Receiving in gratitude and peace… ONE

5 years ago life/fate/god(you choose) threw a curve ball. It has been and is still an ongoing journy to find a new balance and through this journey life continues, normal life markers are reached and we still grow as a person. This being said, my balance is something new every day.

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You are an inspiration.

Stacy (Mama-Om)
October 24, 2010 10:08 pm

I just wrote a post about what I’ve done in the last two weeks — we moved, for one thing! :)

But looking at the post, it looks like so, so much DOING but I realized while writing that what I was trying to communicate is that how I feel, how I’m taking things in, how I am BEING amidst all the doing, is what really matters.

Balance is not static… oh, no. And I love when I can recognize that it is from within imbalance that balance comes.

Love,
s

Balance is flowing … awareness to the needs and desires of my family and my self… understanding whose needs are greatest at any time…anticipating…being in the moment…gratitude…Knowing that All is Well (even when uncomfortable)…being gentle…being playful… knowing my priorities and what brings me joy…knowing when to pull back and when to steam ahead… all of the above, at the same time..it works for me.

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This is beautiful Tara! So jealous of your future desk. Ha! :)

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