Twenty-Nine Years Ago

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i’m glad you were born
29 years ago
in this very place
when we were still worlds apart

you, with a crooked smile
and a chipped tooth
and a deep sense of responsibility
for things that aren’t yours
and those who are

you, who grew up quickly
and quietly
who’s path i often wondered if i crossed
unnoticed

you, who sacrifices all dignity
to see us laughing until we pee our pants
at the faces you make
or animals you impersonate
or other things I probably shouldn’t repeat
(because dignity is only lost for us, after all)

you, who feels old in his youth
and gives himself a bellyache for it
who fears things
like speaking his mind
and wearing pink that’s really grey
no matter what your eyes tell you

you, who challenges me
and my beliefs on independence
who reminds me without words
(and sometimes with words)
all you mean to us

you, who fills me
who is the catalyst behind our best ideas
who inspires me
and reminds me of my own power
yet fails to see it all lacks without your hand

you, who is not finding yourself
but creating
who thinks deeply
but doesn’t share
whom i can neither read
nor resist

you, who fails to acknowledge
your own wonder and prowess
who can’t admit to the miracle that is you
who has yet to discover
the influence and magic that would disappear
had you not been born
into this world
and into mine

i’m glad you were born
to smile and to learn
to push and be pushed

i’m glad you were born
to influence and shape
and create and Be

i’m glad you were born
into this place, this time
to be this person
just Who You Are
right now
and here with me

Happy birthday, Justin. I love you.

Twenty-eight

Today is my 28th birthday. I don’t feel 28. Not to say that 28 is old and I feel younger or vice versa. I just don’t feel any age. I am ageless. ha

It comes with a liberating feeling. As if 28 means I can finally begin to do things for me, instead of for the image I felt I should portray. I don’t know why that is, but there you have it.

27 was a good year, but in a very painful way. It was eye-opening and and honest and excruciating as only self-discovery can be. And with it has come desires and images of who I think I might become and things I think I might want to do with my 28 year old Self.

It's my birthday and I'll take narcissistic photos if I want to

I want 28 to be a great year. And I’m approaching it consciously, instead of allowing it to approach me.

This year I want to:

  1. Embrace my child’s fullness, even especially when it scares me
  2. Stand under more stars than I’ve ever seen
  3. Visit the Smithsonian
  4. Leave messages or gifts of love in random places
  5. Learn to love to prepare food
  6. Show my gratitude for life each day
  7. Learn the harmonica
  8. Visit my father’s hometown (Odessa, TX)
  9. Be silly
  10. Stop holding back
  11. Advocate more for children in public places
  12. Find and pursue my art
  13. Volunteer more of my time
  14. Validate, appreciate, and celebrate authenticity
  15. Only shop small and local
  16. Speak my husband’s Love Language more fluently
  17. Begin to learn Italian
  18. See Iron & Wine, Ray LaMontagne or Brandi Carlisle in concert
  19. Make silly/wicked/fun/cool home videos
  20. Lighten Up
  21. Let go of what others want me to be and Just Be Me
  22. Knit a pair of socks
  23. Dance more freely
  24. Find a place that takes my breath away
  25. Bite my tongue more often
  26. Be on stage
  27. Breath first and then speak from my heart
  28. Let Go of my fear of losing love and happiness & embrace this life fully

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Here goes something…

Old Man

That’s Zeb’s new nickname for his dad, “Old Man.” Gotta love (and reminisce) how 28 constitutes old in the mind of a kid. Justin told him he could call him an “old man” when Zeb could beat him at arm wrestling. That should give him some time, no?

Happy Bday!
If you’re wondering whether he ever wears a shirt
the answer would be “No.”

Justin took the day off work for his birthday, we went to see G.I.Joe and relaxed most of the day. We baked the World’s Ugliest Angel Food Cake (not an easy feat to make without an electric mixer) and we grilled dinner outside. We both agreed to skip birthday presents this year (in order to save more money for the Plan) but I foresee a used laptop in the near future anyway.

Now we’re busy planning a celebration for Zeb’s Big 1-0. This. Weekend.

They both are growing up so fast. ;) (Well, sorta. The fart jokes still abound. With both of them.)

How I Spent My Birthday

I’m 27 today. Finally. I’ve been feeling 27 for quite some time. And now I feel my age. And I mean that in a good way. I finally don’t feel too young. And I have a feeling that 27 will be a good year for me. Starting with a perfectly peaceful day today.

Slept in late.
Enjoyed the breakfast Zeb made for me – toast and “two kinds of eggs” (scrambled and runny).
Spent the morning watching his first golf lesson (more on that later!).
Crocheted myself a birthday present (I’ll try to photograph it tomorrow).
Answered the relentless question “Where are you eating for your birthday?” with “My dining room”.
Devoured a dinner of whole wheat pancakes covered in applesauce made by my sweet hubby.
Happily watched him clean the kitchen for me. :D
Curled up on the couch with hot cocoa and my two favorite men watching Christmas movies.
Curled up by myself to giggle with Tom Ewell and Marilyn Monroe.
And now I’m lazily wasting my night away with my laptop, reading blogs and perusing websites.

But really I’m here to blog about my totally rad gift.

My Birthday Gift

Justin and Zeb picked this up for me at an antique store. I have no idea if it’s truly an antique (the newspaper stuffing the tiles into place is dated 2007…but maybe!) however I still think it’s awesome. Did you know Mah Jong can be played with four players and reqires scoring points to win? Me neither!

Seriously a perfect day. But I should seriously be in bed. Good night!

Happy Birthday Zipper!

Although Zeb’s official birthday was Thursday (just four days after Justin’s), his celebration was spread over several days with brownies on Wednesday with the Life Learners, Thursday’s special “Mama and Son” breakfast out, with dinner and a movie with Dad later in the day, and Friday was spent with his “best bud” A. and his Gramma at the “amusement park”, the AdventureDome.

Birthday with the Life Learners

Sunday was our official celebration (see why I needed to finish painting?) with all the grandparents in attendence, homemade cupcakes with homemade icing and fresh strawberries and of course, presents which included a brand new Big Kid bike complete with pegs for all the tricks he wants to learn.

One went out

This year, although celebrated several times, was a pretty low-key birthday. We’re saving up for his double-digit birthday next year. I can’t believe my baby boy is a 9 year old! (A few more photos on Flickr.)

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