Posts Tagged "dreams"

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The Story of My Dream Car Almost Crushing My Dreams

I bought my dream car last week. The kind of car you give yourself permission to buy when you no longer tell yourself you have to be practical or realistic or whatever other stories I used to tell myself. I never counted on it being such a huge lesson in patience, determination, forgiveness, and self-love. That’s because I never counted on buying a manual. But as it turns out metallic blue, convertible Mini Coopers with my exact specifications AND with an automatic transmission are pretty rare. I know. I searched nationwide for what I wanted. We almost hopped planes to AZ, NJ, and southern FL to bring one home. But again and again the deets kept coming up bad – bad dealerships, bad CarFaxes, bad vibes man. So when one popped up in our neighborhood that was a manual, I figured we could at least go look at it and…

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Am I enjoying this ride?

I dreamt that I was riding a bike. The town was new to me, the road was foreign. And I was faintly aware that I was not familiar with this whole “bike riding” thing. But I rode anyway. As the roads went up steep hills, I was only aware of the tension and burning in my thighs. It didn’t hurt, and I didn’t have the thought of walking the bike up the hill instead. I was just aware and steady,  my attention to it like a mindful parent: encouraging, calm, focused, and invested in this uphill-ness. As the hills went down, I picked up speed and recognized I had no brakes and I quickly realized my expectations of controlling this thing was a joke. But instinctively, I shifted, leaned forward, and found that I could slow things down by leaning heavier, pressing my feet into the pedals themselves. And I…

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Organic Wisdom :: “It’s Just Not A Good Time For Me To…”

Every Friday I try to share some of the quotes I post on Twitter and Facebook, with some of my expanded thoughts and feelings on it here. “Organic Wisdom” is what I have found speaking to me in those quiet moments, that guides me and that echoes Truth in my life. Please feel free to download, or share this image in any way you’d like. Busy and “bad timing” are going to be the excuses we use for our entire life until one day we realize that “busy” is something we create to avoid the Big Dreams telling us it actually IS time. “It’s not a good time to start eating healthier. I’m too busy to get myself feeling well.” “It’s not a good time to follow my dreams. The market is crap right now.” “It’s not a good time to talk about this. I have too much going on.”…

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Officially Introducing :: The Organic (Blog to) Business Mastermind…Summer Sessions!

Do you :: Work or want to work for yourself doing something you love that also makes a difference in the lives of others? Have a current blog, business or Big Idea but have no idea where to go with it (or even where to start)? Want the wisdom of 10+ personal years and 3 generations of entrepreneurial experience, coupled with powerful intuition and guidance, to help you strategize, design, and recreate your business into something successful? Are you :: A spiritual pragmatic, ready to lean into step-by-step actions, as well as the inner Wisdom found through meditation, EFT or your own inner work? Wanting to keep your family and your values as your first priority, working in a way that is powerful, productive and authentic? Ready to be accountable for your own dreams and commit to your other Mastermind Sisters? Would you :: Like to make $2,000-$10,000 a month…

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Being Practical Isn’t All That Great

I hate that title. What I really want to say is “Being Practical” sucks. Or at least the common understanding of that phrase. I recently did something incredibly impractical. It’s something that could take years to fix, will most certainly cost thousands of dollars, will create unforeseeable stress and frustrating amounts of work, has already caused physical pain and was against medical advice. It’s wasn’t necessary. It isn’t easy. There was really nothing practical about it. And I couldn’t be happier. What crazy, expensive, painful, ill-advised thing did I do? I got braces. Not a shred of evidence exists in favor of the idea that life is serious. – Brendan Gill Did you know I’ve agonized over this decision for over 10 years? The idea of spending thousands of dollars and seeing one orthodontist all in the name of vanity rubbed badly against my practical side. Spending thousands of dollars…

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Interesting Detours (Are Covered in Paint)

I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by. – Douglas Adams We had every intention of getting back on the road by January 1st. The deadline seems ridiculously funny now that we’re two months behind schedule and covered in paint. Despite knowing better, I still love setting unrealistic goals. Like T.S. Eliot says, “Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.” I want to push myself. I want to do things others think aren’t possible. As a family, as a couple and as three individuals, we set some pretty grandiose goals. The three of us, individually and together, work our asses off to build businesses, to travel or work on our own terms, to pwn noobs. We know what we want (and sometimes we don’t) and we go after it. But if there’s one thing…

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The Collective Female Energy (and an Invitation)

I’m nearing the end of my last month on the Visionary Mom Team. I have only a few weeks left to go before I’ll have to say goodbye to Lisa and the 9 other women who have supported and encouraged me since August. I underestimated what a gentle but pivotal role the team would played in my life. I shouldn’t have. You should never underestimate the power of a collective female energy. The very foundation of nearly a dozen mamas on one cooperative journey is rooted in creation. But it also resonates a strength, a nurturing and a no bullshit attitude that is the unmistakable art of such empowered women. It also brings balance to the experience. Each one of us had a slightly different story to tell, a slightly different path to take, a slightly different view of the world. And we could offer it all without fear or…

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Unhappy News (and dreams and fears)

I’m feeling like the rubber ball attached to a paddle, one second flying high with wild excitement, the next being bashed against a wall. Success, failure, inspiration, frustration, pieces clicking into place, only to crumble apart again. A person can only ride a rollercoaster for so long before they need to vomit. Consider this my vomit. Yesterday we were dealt a nasty blow to our dreams. The possibility of leaving Las Vegas by January has ended. The idea of two or three extra months here shouldn’t leave me in tears on the floor, but it did. I don’t want to be here. I resist it with every fiber of my being. I make it clear to everyone I speak with that I’m only visiting. That this is not my home. I don’t feel good here, I don’t feel whole or fed or at peace here. I feel needy and desperate…

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Thoughts On The Farm: Could We Do This?

Happy Bench Monday – Farm Edition (Or Seven Turkeys On A Ford) There comes a point where the romance wears off and you realize just how much hard work is involved in sustainable farming. I think I reached that point on Thursday. Don’t get me wrong: there is a part of us that does not want to leave at the end of this week. Good food, good people and a culture we enjoy. Not to mention fulfilling work in something we believe in. And there is so much more to know about sustainable housing, animal husbandry, beekeeping, rotational grazing, preserving…we could be here for years and still learning. But we didn’t sign up for this internship to learn how to farm. We signed up to find out if this is something we want to do in the future…if we’re cut out for it or if doing it ourselves would totally…

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SO Big. SO Life Changing.

Are you just . . . . dying to know . . . . the big . . . . life changing . . . . decision? . . . . We’re moving!! . Or rather, I should say, we’ll be on the move. Meet Benny the Brave: Here’s the deal: Justin is facing layoff within a month or so. He feels fairly certain he can scrounge up a few more months of work. But construction is grimmer than Vegas has ever seen. And he knows he’ll need to find work elsewhere. And with Benny, we can follow the work while we scope out new places to live. Apparently, he’s been thinking about and researching going on the road for awhile. He approached me with the idea while at GVC and totally freaked me out. (I think Jeff Sabo’s talk at Good Vibrations on pursuing our own Passions pushed him…

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