Posts Tagged "fear"

What Makes Us Scary to The Night?

What She is Made Of – my first real attempt at mixed media I had only just turned 17. It was February, give or take, and I was several months pregnant, which may account for my slightly crazy act of heroism (protective instinct and all). My mom and I were driving home after dark, and as she turned the corner of our street I saw the violence taking place. I remember shooting upright in the passengers seat, twisting to watch as we drove to our home about 7 houses away. There was a fire in me that I couldn’t stop, that I’m not even sure my mom could stop (or maybe I just couldn’t hear her try). As soon as our car stopped in the drive, my door was open and I was running toward them. Two young men, scary looking men – the kind you’d imagine in a gang…

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I Say Ego, But I Really Mean Fear

I sometimes throw around the word Ego. But I’m really not fond of the common definition or the connotation. This is a throwback to my upbringing, to being raised in a belief that there is some inherently bad or broken part of us that, as humans, we must fight against (fight against it in ourselves and fight against it in others, namely in our children). I don’t believe this. At all. I do not believe there is a soul on this planet who is naturally bad, born terrible, or inherently evil. There are people who do some terrible, diabolical, tragic things. But I hesitate to even use the word “evil” to describe them, as this just seems to me a cop-out, as if I can all easily explain away such behaviors with a sweep of the hand, brushing off the deeper cause and responsibility we all have (to one another)…

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Organic Wisdom :: The Result of Your Experiences

Every Friday I try to share some of the quotes I post on Twitter and Facebook, with some of my expanded thoughts and feelings on it here. “Organic Wisdom” is what I have found speaking to me in those quiet moments, that guides me and that echoes Truth in my life. Please feel free to download, or share this image in any way you’d like. I think we (myself included) give too much credit to our experiences, saying that they are what made us who we are today. Likewise we can give too much blame as well, insisting that they are the cause of our suffering. But we are not the result of what happened to us. We are the result of what we choose to do with it. Painful, heartbreaking and horrific things have happened in my life: abuse, assault, loss, depression. I’m not being contrite when I say…

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Organic Wisdom :: When Fear Is The Cause…

Every Friday I try to share some of the quotes I post on Twitter and Facebook, with some of my expanded thoughts and feelings on it here. “Organic Wisdom” is what I have found speaking to me in those quiet moments, that guides me and that echoes Truth in my life. Please feel free to download, or share this image in any way you’d like. When we fear our children’s behaviors, we act out of control and our compassion, patience and relationship suffers. When we fear others will hurt us, we throw our barriers up and our ability to trust ourselves and others suffers. When we fear our lover will leave, we act out of neediness and our love suffers. When we fear there won’t be enough for us, we act out of greed and our gratitude and generosity suffers. When we fear we will fail, we hold ourselves back…

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Part Three: On the Experience of Shaving My Head and Being Free (Before, During and After Photos and Video!)

I’ve sat here looking at a blank screen grasping at inadequate words to describe the shaving of my head for way too long. Incredible? Weak. Empowering? Still weak. Enlightening? Closer. Let me start by backing up a little to the beginning of my weekend. We’ll see where it goes from there. The Start of One Incredible, Life-Changing Weekend Tiffani, my badass freeplaylife photographer, arrived in Orlando on Friday evening. Now let me just say something about Tiffani. She’s flipping amazing. Colorful. Playful. Daring. Vibrant. Envelope-pushing. But she also has this deeply sensitive side that you only get to see in her photos or videos or in long conversations about Life. So I knew she was the perfect person to help me commemorate this powerful step. Because she totally “got it”. ♥ We had an amazing weekend that I know I’ll be talking more about later. But the photos! Oh wow,…

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Why I Love Getting Older :: How Aging Became an Honor Instead of a Fear (Video)

Women, especially older women, always smirk a little when I tell them how much I look forward to aging. I can’t wait to get my first grey hair (or find them under all these dreads), I love the lines I’m wearing on my face, and how I see aging as one of the most beautiful things in the world. They assume it hasn’t “hit me yet”. Oh but it has. The fear of aging hit me a few years ago. Hard. And that’s when everything changed. I explain it, passionately and emotionally I might add, in this video below… . Could you use a little thriving growth in your life? I have two very gorgeous new products to offer YOU this holiday season. Not a gift for you to offer someone else, but something you can give yourself. Mindfulness. Grounding. Love. Joy. Awareness. Wisdom. An experience that allows us to…

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The Experience of Gratitude is Not a “Should”

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and so many of us are turning our hearts toward big, beautiful meals and the idea of gratitude. Gratitude was my main guiding word this year. So naturally I have lots of thoughts during my very favorite holiday. I’ve never loved Thanksgiving for the gratitude part. I loved it for the simplicity, for its ability to not add so many layers of complexity to what I am really wanting to experience: deep connection with those I love, deep enjoyment I find myself most capable of within a slower pace in life, and deep nourishment – physically and spiritually. But something about the idea of gratitude tended to rub me the wrong way. And I didn’t understand it until this year, as I dove into this word, allowing it to guide me, to show me, to open me to what I longed to understand. And this is what…

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Real Women and the Lies We Live (Video)

I almost didn’t share this video. I had made it quickly because it started pouring out of me and my audio and video wouldn’t sync. But that’s not why I almost didn’t share it. I almost didn’t share it because my entire life I’ve been shamed for my body type, taught to feel less than other women or self-conscious or care too deeply about what others thought of my body. Taught to be wary of going to the bathroom too soon after I ate because someone would derisively accuse me of being bulemic. Taught to wear nothing above the knees out of fear that someone would comment on my thin legs. So after this video came pouring out of me, I began to waver. “Maybe I shouldn’t.” “Maybe I’ll offend someone.” “Who am I to talk about body image?” It took a sweet woman speaking up a couple days ago…

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Thriving, Not Just Surviving Childhood

Thriving, not just surviving. Children’s talent to endure stems from their ignorance of alternatives. – Maya Angelou How many times have you heard (or even said), “I survived [spankings/punishment/hard work/not getting attention] as a child. So will they.”? Countless I’d bet. It’s the common response anytime compassionate, mindful, organic parents talk about the alternatives they’ve found to control, coercion, and hurtfulness of children. We all want the best for our children. Our ideas of how to provide that are obviously radically different than the mainstream. But more than our ideas of how to provide the best for our kids, it seems like many parents have a deep resistance toward providing for our kids the things they didn’t have. Oh not the “stuff”…lots of parents can easily provide more stuff than they had. But so few are ready to provide in deeper ways. So few are comfortable providing more love, more…

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5 Things Your Fear of Change Really Means

We all have what we think are reasons to fear change. It’s annoying, overwhelming, frustrating, unnecessary, time-consuming, and so on. But I’m going to challenge you to DIG deeper than the circumstance, deeper than your reactions to the circumstance. I’m going to challenge you to DIG into the real reasons any of us are afraid of change, whether it’s frustration over Facebook changes or overwhelm over a change in career or fear of a change within ourselves or our lives. Change via Zoe Pittman (Heck, how many of you are afraid right now of changing your perspective on this topic? Maybe you’re feeling flustered or confused, tight in your stomach or shoulders, aggravated, offended or worried. That’s all about fear, baby.) All human actions are motivated at their deepest level by two emotions–fear or love. In truth there are only two emotions–only two words in the language of the soul…. Fear…

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