Posts Tagged "organic beauty"

Free To Never Notice

I shaved my head again last week. It wasn’t in a moment of enlightenment or courage this time. It didn’t bring with it all the ecstasy and liberation. This time it was done out of frustration toward myself, almost like “pulling my hair out”. I had noticed how attached I had become to my hair, how much I cared about how it was looking, what it portrayed, and what others might think about it. And that pissed me off. Old patterns die hard, and even after several years of feeling free of that one, it had snuck back in. And I was not okay with that. I was angry. Mostly at myself. So out of anger, I shaved it all off again. Like I said I didn’t feel so liberated and joyful this time around. Instead I felt horrible, ugly, and full of self-hatred. Yes, self-hatred – as I witnessed…

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One Year Later: “Do you miss your dreads?” {video}

I’ve gotten a lot of that question, especially on YouTube where new people find this still-awesome-to-watch video. So I decided to do an update video, mainly for you YouTubers who have asked, and partially just cuz. In it: the answer to that question, “do you miss your dreads?” and if I have any regrets what I do to naturally style my short hair my awesome new sidecut plenty of weird faces (I’m, er…expressive) why I kept it shaved off for so long what I learned about myself/experienced in the process some of the crazy things people have said about my shaved head a challenge to those of you who think you can’t do something radical P.S. If you’re tempted and need a little inspiration and support to take the leap, check out Tiffani’s challenge. Oh hell, why not share the ever-so-awesome video again too.

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External Reflections of an Internal Joy (My Thoughts on Meaningful Consumerism)

Tiffani and I were sitting on the edge of my bed when I had the epiphany (I’m calling it “The Epiphany with Tiffani”.) We were looking through my closet trying to find the perfect thing to wear during the dready photoshoot when she said something extremely obvious along the lines of “Pick something that reflects you and that you feel really good in” and I realized how much I felt “comfortable” in or “okay” in, but nothing to fit her description. I started talking about how much of my clothing I don’t actually *love* or that doesn’t fit me well and how much I dislike to shop because I can never find what I want and love, when it hit me that I had my closet and my head so full of what I didn’t want that I had no space in either for what I did! I know the…

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Cutting My Dreadlocks, Contagious Clippers – And a Video!

The always gorgeous, always talented Tiffani Bearup sent me over the first of two videos of our Head Shaving weekend. I love you, Tiffani. You helped me commemorate one of the most incredible experiences of my life. Thank you for your talent, your heart and soul and all the tiny things you offered me in one brilliant weekend. ♥ It’s Contagious, I Tell Ya There is something about it that is contagious. Check it out: From Wild Zen: It was perfect, a part of the deep cleansing I was doing, a way to take what was inside and wear it outside, a symbol of new transformation in my life. I thought it was going to be a lesson in embracing my ugly – I wasn’t expecting to feel so radiant and sexy! I have bounds of clarity, especially in what is “other people’s stuff” and what’s mine (like how some…

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Part Three: On the Experience of Shaving My Head and Being Free (Before, During and After Photos and Video!)

I’ve sat here looking at a blank screen grasping at inadequate words to describe the shaving of my head for way too long. Incredible? Weak. Empowering? Still weak. Enlightening? Closer. Let me start by backing up a little to the beginning of my weekend. We’ll see where it goes from there. The Start of One Incredible, Life-Changing Weekend Tiffani, my badass freeplaylife photographer, arrived in Orlando on Friday evening. Now let me just say something about Tiffani. She’s flipping amazing. Colorful. Playful. Daring. Vibrant. Envelope-pushing. But she also has this deeply sensitive side that you only get to see in her photos or videos or in long conversations about Life. So I knew she was the perfect person to help me commemorate this powerful step. Because she totally “got it”. ♥ We had an amazing weekend that I know I’ll be talking more about later. But the photos! Oh wow,…

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Part Two: It’s Not About The Dreads, It’s About the Process (Video)

You can find part one of my goodbye process to my dreads here. Part two is in the (um, pretty emotional) video below… Want to read more about my process from dreadlocks to a shaved head? All dreadlock posts from start to finish are here. Part One: My announcement video of my decision to shave my dreads Part Two: A more in-depth, emotional and raw video on my decision Part Three: Putting The Process of Shaving Them into Words (and lots of photos) Part Four: A GORGEOUS Video and words from other women who’ve done the same And lastly: Burning My Dreadlocks: The Final Goodbye

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Why I Love Getting Older :: How Aging Became an Honor Instead of a Fear (Video)

Women, especially older women, always smirk a little when I tell them how much I look forward to aging. I can’t wait to get my first grey hair (or find them under all these dreads), I love the lines I’m wearing on my face, and how I see aging as one of the most beautiful things in the world. They assume it hasn’t “hit me yet”. Oh but it has. The fear of aging hit me a few years ago. Hard. And that’s when everything changed. I explain it, passionately and emotionally I might add, in this video below… . Could you use a little thriving growth in your life? I have two very gorgeous new products to offer YOU this holiday season. Not a gift for you to offer someone else, but something you can give yourself. Mindfulness. Grounding. Love. Joy. Awareness. Wisdom. An experience that allows us to…

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Real Women and the Lies We Live (Video)

I almost didn’t share this video. I had made it quickly because it started pouring out of me and my audio and video wouldn’t sync. But that’s not why I almost didn’t share it. I almost didn’t share it because my entire life I’ve been shamed for my body type, taught to feel less than other women or self-conscious or care too deeply about what others thought of my body. Taught to be wary of going to the bathroom too soon after I ate because someone would derisively accuse me of being bulemic. Taught to wear nothing above the knees out of fear that someone would comment on my thin legs. So after this video came pouring out of me, I began to waver. “Maybe I shouldn’t.” “Maybe I’ll offend someone.” “Who am I to talk about body image?” It took a sweet woman speaking up a couple days ago…

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How I Wash My Dreadlocks (Video) and Other Dreaded Things

I’ve had enough people ask how I wash my dreadlocks naturally, that I made a video. For you curiouser minds. And here’s my official announcement… For three and a half years I haven’t felt I was anywhere near cutting my dreads. That’s changed now. I don’t mean the time is NOW. But I feel like it’s soon. Of course, soon could mean tomorrow or it could mean in 6 months. I’ve learned I rarely get to choose my timing or the pace at which I transition. And I can’t explain it right now (although I’m sure I will in the future). I just feel like I’m starting a new growth process, one of letting go. There I said it. I’m at the beginning of the end of this life-changing journey. To be continued…  

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3 Year Dread Anniversary!

Guess what?! My dreads are 3 years old, as of May 17/18! Well, most of them. I felt like making a little video to talk about how things are going, what they’re doing and what this past year has taught me. I also thought it might be fun to create a little game called Count How Many Times Tara Can Say Um in 8 Minutes. Taking shots is purely optional. Other dread-y links you dreaded folks might want: A Radical Change in First Impressions I Am Not My Hair One Year Old Dreads Two Years and Authenticity FAQ About My Dreads No ‘Poo for Dreadlocks And photos of my dreads….  

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